"Miscarriage"
I knew from the moment you were here
And the moment you left me
Little sparkle traveling within me
Buzzing softly under my surface
Not enough time
Not enough development
Where have you gone?
Are you waiting somewhere in the darkness?
Will you come back to me?
Will I feel you again nudging your presence?
It's been over a year now since I lost you
Since your body slipped from mine
I'm sorry I wasn't better
More equipped
A better mother
I pray to see the reason why this happened
I beg to understand the pain I've gone through
Was it another lesson? One of many to experience?
A different kind of birth has
happened to replace yours
A new me has taken over-stronger more creative
Someone who's been hiding for a long time...
Nothing gained could be enough to replace you
But somehow, I am okay
I hope one day the conditions will
be right for me to hold you
To smell you
To kiss you
To make you laugh
Until then, I'll keep writing...
Katie Josphine Gabbert, 30 Sandstone; Minnesota